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Kerry Katona says cocaine addiction, bad marriage and money woes made her want to kill herself

Kerry Katona says cocaine addiction, bad marriage and money woes made her want to kill herself

KERRY Katona has revealed how her cocaine habit, an abusive marriage and the lack of her £250,000 Iceland deal made her want to finish her personal life.

The previous Atomic Kitten star was so low after a string of horrendous setbacks that she would binge on medicine, hoping she would not get up.

 Kerry Katona has opened up about how living through a bad marriage, severe money troubles and her cocaine problem led to her wanting to die

Kerry Katona has opened up about how dwelling by means of a bad marriage, extreme money troubles and her cocaine drawback led to her wanting to die

Kerry was first uncovered to a suicidal try on the age of three, when her mum slit her wrists in entrance of her.

When she was eight months pregnant with Kerry, Sue had tried to slit her throat, and carried out numerous different makes an attempt on her life up till Kerry was 17.

The 37-year-old star now admits, she has had her daughters’ names tattooed on her personal wrists, to cease her following in her mum’s footsteps.

Kerry is talking out in help of The Solar’s You are Not Alone marketing campaign, which goals to increase consciousness and assist save lives by stopping suicide.

Opening up on World Suicide Prevention Day, the mum-of-five, stated: “I felt actually suicidal once I was married to my second husband, Mark.

“I was snorting cocaine like it was going out of fashion. I felt so isolated. I didn’t want to be here anymore. I almost gave in.”

 Kerry has had the names of her children tattooed on her wrists to stop her attempting suicide

Kerry has had the names of her youngsters tattooed on her wrists to cease her trying suicide

The Solar’s You are Not Alone marketing campaign goals to assist forestall deaths from suicide

EVERY 90 minutes within the UK a life is misplaced – to suicide.

It does not discriminate, touching the lives of individuals in each nook of society – from the homeless and unemployed to builders and docs, actuality stars and footballers.

It is the most important killer of individuals underneath the age of 35, extra lethal than most cancers and automotive crashes. And males are 3 times extra probably to take their very own life than ladies.

But, it is not often spoken of, a taboo that threatens to proceed its lethal rampage until all of us cease and take discover, now.

That’s the reason The Solar at present launches the You are Not Alone marketing campaign. To remind anybody dealing with a troublesome time, grappling with psychological sickness or feeling like there’s nowhere left to flip, that there’s hope.

To mark World Suicide Prevention Day, over the course of this week, we’ll inform you the tales of courageous survivors, relations left behind, heroic Good Samaritans – and share ideas from psychological well being specialists.

The goal is that by sharing sensible recommendation, elevating consciousness and breaking down the obstacles individuals face when speaking about their psychological well being, we will all do our bit to assist save lives.

Let’s all vow to ask for assist once we want it, and pay attention out for others.

You are Not Alone.

Kerry is the primary of a number of celebrities who’ve joined forces with The Solar to ship the message, You are Not Alone.

Over the course of this week, we’ll inform the tales of courageous survivors of suicide, the harrowing accounts of these kinfolk left behind, whereas sharing skilled recommendation on the warning indicators to be alert to in your family members.

Suicide can contact anybody, from any stroll of life. The purpose of our marketing campaign is that by serving to to break down the taboos round psychological well being, we will all play our half in stopping deaths from suicide.

‘I felt so alone, I did not want to be right here anymore’

 Kerry lost her lucrative £250,000 Iceland advertising deal after she was filmed taking cocaine

Kerry misplaced her profitable £250,000 Iceland promoting deal after she was filmed taking cocaine

Kerry stated again in 2009, Mark was dishonest on her and movies of him and women in nightclubs have been showing on-line.

On the similar time, a movie emerged of her snorting cocaine in a toilet, which led to the lack of her Iceland contract.

I felt actually suicidal…I felt so remoted. I didn’t want to be right here anymore. I virtually gave in

Kerry, on her darkest days

 

“I used to be like ‘Oh my god I want to die’,” she informed The Solar.

The strain she was underneath on the time left her feeling “alone” and “worthless”.

“I used to be being slated, being referred to as a bad mum. I felt so remoted. I didn’t want to be right here anymore. I virtually gave in.”

‘I might take a lot, I might be frothing on the mouth’

 The reality star revealed that her troubled marriage to Mark Croft , drug habit and mental health problems left her feeling suicidal

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The truth star revealed that her troubled marriage to Mark Croft , drug behavior and psychological well being issues left her feeling suicidal

Kerry freely admits that she misplaced herself to medicine through the marriage and would find yourself so out of it she would endure violent matches, and find yourself blacking out.

At her lowest factors, she hoped she would not get up.

“I took a lot coke with Mark and I had hoped he’d attempt to cease me, and go, ‘I love you too much to see you do this’, however he by no means did,” the star admitted.

“I might take a lot that I’d have a match and begin frothing on the mouth and I actually hoped I wouldn’t get up. However I all the time did. I had a guardian angel, thank God!”

‘She slit her throat when she was pregnant with me’

 Kerry appeared on This Morning in 2008 slurring her speech and behaving strangely. At the time, she blamed the symptoms on sleep medication and denied she'd been drinking

Kerry appeared on This Morning in 2008 slurring her speech and behaving unusually. On the time, she blamed the signs on sleep treatment and denied she’d been consuming

 Kerry's mum Sue battled mental health problems, attempting to take her own life on countless occasions

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Kerry’s mum Sue battled psychological well being issues, trying to take her personal life on numerous events

Kerry’s points with psychological well being stem from her childhood, throughout which she had witnessed her drug-addict mom try suicide a number of occasions in entrance of her.

“She slit her own throat when she was eight months pregnant with me,” she recalled.

Kerry was simply three the primary time she noticed her mum slit her wrists. She did it often till Kerry was 17.

“I’ve all the time been the mum in our relationship,” she stated.

Kerry recalled one time when she received so numb to her mum’s cries for her assist, she truly inspired her to perform her menace of suicide as a result of it had turn into so routine.

‘Mum’s boyfriend advised us he needed to chop us up – I had to pull a knife out of my leg’

 Kerry, who had been diagnosed with bipolar disorder at 25, freely admits that she lost herself to drugs

Kerry, who had been recognized with bipolar dysfunction at 25, freely admits that she misplaced herself to medicine

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Throughout Kerry’s GCSEs her mum’s boyfriend was run over and killed.

“He was the reason I had been put in a foster home, after he stabbed my mum he told us he was Freddy Krueger, and wanted to chop us up,” Kerry stated.

“I even had to pull a knife out of my leg.”

The star stated she and her sister have been despatched to a foster house, after her mum selected her boyfriend over them, breaking Kerry’s coronary heart.

“When he died, my mum needed to kill herself, so I made her take all of the tablets.

“I stated ‘do it, take them all, I have had enough of this. Am I not good enough for you?’”

Kerry then referred to as an ambulance earlier than going to her foster mother and father’ residence. She sat an examination at college then picked her mum up from hospital the subsequent day.

‘I tattooed my youngsters’ names on my wrist to cease me following in mum’s steps’

 Kerry says that although her marriage woes made her feel suicidal, she admits money worries were also a source of her pain

Kerry says that though her marriage woes made her really feel suicidal, she admits money worries have been additionally a supply of her ache

Kerry stated it is her devotion to her 5 youngsters that has stopped her going via with an try to take her life.

She had her daughters’ names tattooed on her wrist to guarantee it by no means occurs.

“I advised myself I’d have to be actually egocentric to reduce by way of my youngsters’ names,” she advised The Solar.

“I might by no means think about slitting my wrists in entrance of my youngsters. However I can’t blame my mum for something.

“I simply by no means knew any totally different. I do now. It was so improper.”

‘I used to be so relieved once I was recognized with bipolar

 Kerry Katona pictured with her former Atomic Kitten bandmates Natasha Hamilton and Liz McClarnon at the premier of The Beach in February 2000

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Kerry Katona pictured with her former Atomic Kitten bandmates Natasha Hamilton and Liz McClarnon on the premier of The Seashore in February 2000

When she was youthful, Kerry stated she had no concept about psychological well being, although her mum had suffered manic melancholy, “which was the old name for bipolar”.

It was whereas she was in woman band Atomic Kitten that Kerry was recognized as bipolar, after displaying indicators of deep melancholy.

Why it is up to all of us to scale back deaths by suicide

“I used to be feeling down and depressed and wasn’t positive about to deal with issues,” she stated.

“I didn’t have a clue what bipolar was, I assumed it was a sport or one thing.

“But I was so delighted that I had a name for it. I didn’t know what it was but it was OK because I knew I wasn’t crazy and there was definitely something wrong me.”

‘I realised my life had to change’

 Kerry has turned her life around and now lives a fit and healthy lifestyle

Kerry has turned her life round and now lives a match and wholesome way of life

Kerry Katona cries as she opens up about drug demons on Unfastened Ladies

For Kerry, the turning level got here when she took half in a boot camp for a magazine, whereas she was married to Mark.

It was in that two weeks, that she realised her life had to change.

“It was the primary time I used to be away from Mark for 2 strong weeks, operating, consuming healthily. I got here off my bipolar treatment,” she stated.

“I never touched cocaine ever again. That boot camp saved my life.”

She stated consuming nicely and train has modified her life. Three days after she received again from boot camp, she informed Mark she needed a divorce.

“I moved south and have by no means appeared again. It felt like I used to be popping out of a coma, I might see so clearly.”

‘I nonetheless have days once I assume I can not do that anymore – however now I battle it’

 Kerry is encouraging people with mental health issues to speak about them

Kerry is encouraging individuals with psychological well being points to discuss them

Kerry is aware of that dwelling with bipolar means she is going to by no means escape her emotions of melancholy, however stated she now is aware of how to cope with them.

“I nonetheless endure from melancholy from time to time,” she said. “I’ve bipolar and there are occasions I’ll sit within the rest room once I assume I can’t do that anymore.

“But I am a different person now. I know what my triggers are and what my tools are.”

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Kerry stated she has a “hijacker” in her head.

“I name her Miss Doubt, who places me down, who says I can’t do this, keep on the sofa, watch TV all day, don’t do something.

“I have to fight that person to get out of it.”

She stated train is nice for her psychological well being.

“It’s turned my life round.”

‘Should you really feel suicidal, simply take a look at me…you possibly can flip your life round too’

Kerry Katona stuns in a trendy black gown as she watches Dreamgirls with daughter Molly

Kerry is captivated with sharing her expertise, to assist others.

Her youngsters, Molly, 15, Lily-Sue, 14, Heidi, ten, Max, 9 and Dylan-Jorge, three, are extra conscious of psychological well being points than many youngsters, and are conscious their mum suffers robust temper dips.

Now approaching 38 and having lately launched her personal motivational Instagram weblog Bouncing Again With Kerry, she is hoping to share her experiences with others and assist individuals discover their method once more, regardless that she too nonetheless is hit by melancholy.

Kerry is urging anybody feeling low or suicidal to see her for instance.

“Even now I’ve suicidal ideas and I really feel like I can’t do that anymore, however don’t be ashamed or embarrassed to converse up, there’s a lot to reside for.

“Look the place I’m – I used to be on the verge of suicide, I misplaced the whole lot, money associates, household. I’m nonetheless preventing.

“Don’t surrender on your self.

“If I can flip it round, then you possibly can, let’s do it collectively.”

You are Not Alone: The place to search assist should you want it

Should you, or anybody you recognize, wants assist coping with psychological well being issues, the next organisations present help:


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