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Former England bowler Ryan Sidebottom reveals the mental demons he’s been battling since retiring last year

Former England bowler Ryan Sidebottom reveals the mental demons he's been battling since retiring last year

ENGLAND heroes have been celebrating good occasions at The Oval on Tuesday but ex-Check ace Ryan Sidebottom tells TOM RODDY how The Solar’s YOU’RE NOT ALONE suicide-prevention marketing campaign may help former sports activities stars like him by way of dangerous occasions.

RYAN SIDEBOTTOM runs his fingers alongside the beads of a bracelet on his wrist.

 Ryan Sidebottom reveals the severe anxiety he has suffered since retiring last year

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Ryan Sidebottom reveals the extreme nervousness he has suffered since retiring last year

“Love you, Daddy,” reads the message created by his two youngsters.

It’s a easy message however one which has meant so much to the former cricketer over the hardest 12 months of his life.

Sidebottom has struggled since he referred to as time on his 20-year profession last September.

The 40-year-old left-arm bowler retired with 79 wickets in 22 Exams, a T20 World Cup title and 5 County Championship titles at Yorkshire and Notts.

 Sidebottom on a recent trip to Blackpool, where he created a bucket list to help refocus

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Sidebottom on a current journey to Blackpool, the place he created a bucket record to assist refocus

 Sidebottom's 20-year career at clubs like Yorkshire and Notts came to an end last year

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Sidebottom’s 20-year profession at golf equipment like Yorkshire and Notts got here to an finish last year

But at present he talks for the first time about the mental issues he’s battling.

Sidebottom strides into the room sporting flip-flops, skinny denims and a flowing shirt. His distinctive curly pink mane provides a rock ’n’ roll air. He seems to be recent and wholesome — however appearances might be misleading.

Panic began coursing via his veins from the second his profession and marriage got here to an finish at the similar time.

The Yorkshireman revealed: “It’s like a deep, darkish gap that will get deeper and darker.


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 Sidebottom would wake up in the middle of the night with worries

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Sidebottom would get up in the center of the night time with worries

“I’d wake up in the middle of the night feeling really anxious about how I’m going to support my family and what direction my life is going.”

The choice to give up enjoying got here after a dialog together with his father, Arnie, the former Yorkshire and England bowler and Manchester United defender.

Sidebottom Jr, who picked up 762 first-class wickets, stated: “Dad is a typical tell-it-how-it-is Yorkshireman. He stated, ‘You’ve had an excellent run, an incredible profession to be actually pleased with, nevertheless it’s time to name it a day’.

“He carried on for a couple of years longer than he should have. He couldn’t bowl as well as he could have and he didn’t want me to finish like that.”

 Sidebottom pictured with his two children, Indiana, 8, and Darley, 7

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Sidebottom pictured together with his two youngsters, Indiana, eight, and Darley, 7


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 Sidebottom's father Arnie, who played for Yorkshire, advised him to retire

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Sidebottom’s father Arnie, who performed for Yorkshire, suggested him to retire

 Sidebottom pictured with his father as a five-year-old

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Sidebottom pictured together with his father as a five-year-old

So, a couple of weeks later, as Yorkshire ready for lunch after a nets session, Sidebottom introduced he can be calling it a day at the finish of the 2017 season.

However his nervousness had already begun to fester. After 20 years of the similar routine day after day, the uncertainty that lurked at the finish of that season triggered deep-felt fears.

Sidebottom defined: “It’s bizarre as a result of you will have it in your head for a lot of weeks that I’ll inform the lads and all will probably be positive however I used to be fairly teary.

“You attempt to put issues into perspective nevertheless it’s actually troublesome. I’m considering, ‘I’m completed in September, what now? What am I going to do?’ You possibly can’t rationalise something. You get up and assume,

 Bowler Sidebottom won a T20 with England

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Bowler Sidebottom gained a T20 with England

 Uncertainty over retirement prompted Sidebottom to feel anxious about how he would support his family

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Uncertainty over retirement prompted Sidebottom to really feel anxious about how he would help his household

‘Where’s my life going?’’’

Sidebottom believes many sports activities stars are affected by nervousness and melancholy.

Two years in the past Jonathan Trott revealed the torment cricket gave him and the lengths he thought-about going to with a view to escape.

Trott admitted he “considered driving my car into the Thames or into a tree. That way I could get out of the ordeal.”

 Sidebottom said he felt inadequate after he retired from cricket

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Sidebottom stated he felt insufficient after he retired from cricket

 Sidebottom says his support network proved a great help when he was feeling low

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Sidebottom says his help community proved a fantastic assist when he was feeling low

Marcus Trescothick, who misplaced his Check profession to a debilitating mental sickness, revealed in 2011: “It’s more an anxiety issue I have, rather than a depression. Of course, they’re two sides of the same coin but I can flip into anxiety state very quickly.”

Sidebottom says he skilled comparable emotions. He added: “You’re OK one minute then suddenly you become very anxious and stressed. You can only think of the negatives.”

A small circle of associates lent an ear and helped ease the rigidity constructing inside.

Sidebottom stated: “I’ve had some close mates that I rely on. It’s about talking regularly, picking up the phone, not just once a month but all the time. I’ve had a lot of support from friends and family.”

 He says he felt lost after his daily routine was taken away

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He says he felt misplaced after his day by day routine was taken away

 The adrenaline rush of cricket is hard to replace, Sidebottom says

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The adrenaline rush of cricket is tough to switch, Sidebottom says

Sidebottom believes being open about your feelings helps cope with the issues.

He stated: “I’m an emotional man. I’ve by no means been afraid to cry or get upset, to let all of it out.

“It’s hard to go to your mate and say how you’re feeling. But it makes you feel much better. It’s really important.”

The choice is insufferable to think about.

 He is urging men to talk about their feelings and emotions

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He’s urging males to speak about their emotions and feelings

 Sidebottom has returned to cricket as a coach, working as a bowling consultant for Surrey

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Sidebottom has returned to cricket as a coach, working as a bowling marketing consultant for Surrey

Sidebottom revealed: “If I hadn’t had that help community I don’t know what I might have finished, the place I might have gone, mentally and bodily.

“You see it all the time, guys who go down the road of drink and drugs, go out and lose all their money gambling.”

He then mentions an issue many former sportsmen have recognized about retirement.

Sidebottom added: “You try to replace that adrenalin rush you had as a player and you don’t know what to do next. It is really good to talk.”

 Surrey has given Sidebottom a purpose in life once again

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Surrey has given Sidebottom a function in life as soon as once more

 Jonathan Trott has also spoken of the anxiety he suffered in cricket

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Jonathan Trott has additionally spoken of the nervousness he suffered in cricket

That’s what Sidebottom did and what he does now. And that’s the reason he’s talking out in the present day.

Sidebottom has turned the nook of his nervousness and needs to assist others, to attempt to cease this horrible torment taking maintain of anybody else.

Or, at the very least, to assist them to flee its iron grip.

He defined: “I’m a big bloke, 6ft 4in, but actually it’s OK to be emotional. It’s OK for men to open up and say how you feel.”

 Marcus Trescothick said he also suffered from anxiety

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Marcus Trescothick stated he additionally suffered from nervousness

 Sidebottom is ensuring he stays busy going forward

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Sidebottom is making certain he stays busy going ahead

He is aware of some will discover it robust to sympathise together with his expertise.

Sidebottom admitted: “In sport it’s seen as you earn numerous cash, you’ve got an amazing life and journey the world, you keep together with your greatest mates in lodges. However truly it may be a really lonely place.

“You go back to your room and if you’ve had a bad day, you sit there down in the dumps. That can be really lonely.”

After which got here retirement and life as Sidebottom knew it floor to a halt.

 The bracelet on his wrist, made by his kids, is a constant help to him

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The bracelet on his wrist, made by his youngsters, is a continuing assist to him


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He stated: “You’ve had complete construction all of your life — at 9am you get to the floor, at 9.30 you’ve obtained coaching, it’s on the board what internet you’re going to be in.

“After which whenever you retire it’s, ‘What am I going to do now? Where’s my drive? The place’s my self-worth?’

“You get actually caught.”

Getting again into cricket in March as a bowling marketing consultant at Surrey has been one other antidote to the nervousness. He’s thrilled to be concerned as soon as once more, to have a dependable revenue and to be able to assist younger cricketers cope with their issues.

Sidebottom stated: “I’m on the other side of the rope now, I’m helping. It’s good to talk to them, talk about the game, how they’re feeling, find out if they’re OK. It’s all aspects of being a coach and a mentor, not just, ‘Come on, you need to win today’.”

Preserving busy can also be serving to his restoration. Sidebottom has simply returned from a visit to Blackpool with girlfriend Maddie and his youngsters Indiana, eight, and seven-year-old Darley. He has even created a bucket listing.

Sidebottom revealed: “It’s just having a plan. I’ve got so many things on my list. I’m going to Vegas next year with Maddie and also to Nashville. I’ve always wanted to go.”

As Sidebottom will get as much as depart, he checks movie occasions at the native cinema the place he’s planning to take his youngsters.

They’re the reminder he wants — that he’s beloved and that all the things will probably be OK.

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