GEORGE MICHAEL was mendacity ice chilly in mattress — however his lover Fadi Fawaz couldn’t deliver himself to consider the singer was lifeless.
Revealing the harrowing particulars of his discovery of the celebrity’s body, Fadi stated yesterday: “Part of me thought George could have been so cold because he had his fan on.”
George Michael leaves his home in north London, after recovering from a life-threatening bout OF pneumonia
It was solely when an ambulance arrived that the former hairdresser accepted the fact.
In a unprecedented new assertion about life with the troubled star, Fadi wrote: “I thought, ‘That’s it, he finally did it.’ ”
Writing for the first time at size about the surprising occasions, George’s lover revealed the singer — hopelessly hooked on social gathering drug GHB — had beforehand tried to kill himself 4 occasions, together with stabbing himself 25 occasions when he was in rehab.
In astonishing posts on Instagram recalling their years collectively, Fadi defined: “All he wanted to do was die.”
In love, Fadi and George in 2012
Fadi, now 45, met George in 2009 and started courting him in 2011 — a love that ended when he discovered George, 53, lifeless in his house in Goring-on-Thames, Oxon, on Christmas Day 2016.
Right here is his uncooked and intimate story of their life collectively in his personal phrases.
“I first met George in 2009 when he nonetheless had a live-in associate.
“Our relationship was a sexual one, however George wouldn’t have intercourse until he had taken GHB, a drug also called G.
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Followers collect on the anniversary of George’s demise in his residence in Goring-on-Thames, Oxon, on Christmas Day 2016
“After roughly two months he took me out to dinner and requested me thus far him formally however I stated no, as he nonetheless had his associate in the home and I couldn’t tolerate his use of GHB.
“He called me again the following day but after that time we didn’t see each other for about three years.”
Fadi’s account then jumps forwards to 2011, when he started courting George and joined him on tour after the singer swore he was clear — which was in truth a lie. Fadi writes: “In Vienna, he fell unwell. He had pneumonia and was unconscious for about 12 days. Roughly 5 weeks later, George was OK.
“All the things was pretty however we had actually solely been courting for 2 weeks earlier than he fell ailing and our relationship had modified. While George was nonetheless skinny from his sickness, I noticed him with cocaine in aluminium foil. He advised me that it was [cocaine]. No one knew about this. George additionally had one thing brown, I don’t know what crack appears like.
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George performing in 2011 – the similar yr that Fadi started courting the singer
“George advised me that he didn’t need to use and he wasn’t joyful that he was taking it. He was by no means the similar once more after [contracting] pneumonia.
“Our romance died. George began to brazenly use GHB once more. George would combine G right into a drink of Coke. He wouldn’t cover the reality he was doing it. He all the time drank all of it, by no means leaving any.
I advised him, ‘Someday I’m going to return and discover you lifeless.'”
Then got here a stint in rehab, adopted by an incident in Might 2013 when George fell from a automotive being pushed by a good friend.
It was described as an accident at the time however Fadi reveals it was in truth a suicide bid.
One of Fadi’s posts detailing the demise of his lover, George
“George was so depressed at that time that he didn’t want to live. George threw himself out of the vehicle whilst they were driving on the M1.”
The incident was a turning level and, after one other stint in rehab, George requested Fadi to maneuver into his residence in Goring, promising to surrender GHB — however not give up smoking cocaine.
“George is a really delicate sleeper and advised me that I snore and transfer round lots, and consequently we had our personal bedrooms.
“We had not shared a room since drifting aside after the [car] incident.
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George admitted to Fadi that he was utilizing cocaine
“George informed me to take the main bedroom however I stated no and selected a room on the floor flooring the place I labored.
“Sometimes George would ask me to go up to bed with him, but I would always return to my own room.”
“Their uncommon association would show essential in the hours earlier than his dying on Christmas Day in 2016 — after a row the day earlier than.
“George had taken to his mattress and Fadi additionally napped till 5pm.
“I acquired up and stored wanting upstairs in the direction of George’s bed room door. George all the time sleeps with the door barely open. Each time I seemed, the door by no means modified place.
“I do know he often sleeps till 6pm and so I waited, I felt in a very good temper.
“It got here to 7pm. George and I’ve this relationship factor the place if we now have upset one another he would refuse to return down and I might refuse to go up. It received to 7.30pm.
“ I began to really feel a bit down and questioned if I ought to simply go to London, however I didn’t actually need to go. After consuming I went to my room.
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Fadi informed how he could not inform George was lifeless till seeing his ‘finger’s have been blue’
“I assumed that if he was avoiding me, this might give him the freedom to return down and he might come and see me if he needed to.
“I then fell asleep. On the 25th December, Christmas Day, I awoke. I do not know what time.
“I obtained up and seemed upstairs. I noticed that George’s door had not moved, nor had I heard any motion.
“I made a decision to go and see if he was in. As a result of of previous expertise although, I used to be subconsciously apprehensive too.
Nothing was out of place in the room. The mattress was so neat. His face appeared regular however his fingers have been blue. He needed to die so badly. He’d as soon as stabbed himself 25 occasions
“I had always told him, “Don’t do this to me”. I appeared in his room and noticed that he was in mattress. There have been no lights on. George by no means has a light-weight on, he doesn’t even like the slightest bit of mild when he sleeps.
“I went in and out of the room 3 times to see if he was respiration. I solely took one step into the room.
“There are some steps up and then the mattress. I assume I used to be about two metres away from the mattress.
“Now that I used to be near him I might see that his proper hand was as much as his face, together with his fist clenched, together with his fingers curled towards his cheek.
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Fadi advised George ‘someday I’m going to return and discover you lifeless’
“His face seemed regular. I noticed that his legs have been collectively however appeared tense underneath the covers. I couldn’t see any vomit.
“I touched him, however he was chilly. I couldn’t inform that he was lifeless till I noticed his fingers have been blue.
“I was shaking him and saying, ‘George, George’ but he was dead.”
It was about 1.45pm on the afternoon of Christmas Day. Fadi referred to as his niece and additionally George’s greatest good friend and producer David Austin, 56, earlier than dialling 999.
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The star was buried on his household’s plot in Highgate Cemetery, North London
“Once I spoke to David he stated to place water on George however I stated ‘I’m not doing that. He’s lifeless.’ David stated to name 999, so I rang them.
“When the ambulance arrived the woman made me really feel dangerous as a result of she stated George had been lifeless some time.
“It was the means she checked out me — it made me really feel little. She had no respect for me that was for positive.
“When the police arrived she advised them she didn’t know my relationship to George. I’m his associate. She made me really feel upset, upset with myself.
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Tributes have been left on George’s Vary Rover outdoors his Highgate house after his demise
“Half of me thought that George might have been chilly as a result of he had his fan on, and I assumed I might see him respiration however he was lifeless.
“George’s pyjamas have been on the flooring the place he would do it each time.
“Nothing was out of place in the room, on the mattress or the bedside tables and every thing was the similar as earlier than.
“There was no signal he struggled or something. The mattress was so neat. The whole lot was good.
“I thought that’s it — he finally did it and I finally saw him dead in his bed.”
“And in horrifying new claims, Fadi detailed how he believed George had repeatedly tried to finish his personal life — together with one try when he ended up in hospital in Marylebone, London, for 3 days.
“I all the time begged him not to do that however he was so depressed. All he needed to do is die.
“He has tried to kill himself 4 occasions. While in rehab he tried to stab himself 25 occasions.
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Fadi believes life stopped for George Michael a very long time earlier than his dying
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“He never told me how he did it when he was taken for three days to Marylebone. I would say, ‘aren’t you glad May 16th didn’t happen?”, referring to at least one suicide try, and he would say no.
“He needed to die so badly and it was highly effective to listen to him say it.
“I think life stopped for him a long time ago.”